Chapter 1: Understanding Mortality

As I navigate the landscape of retirement for the past two years, I find myself increasingly aware of the concept of mortality. Having managed the affairs of two deceased aunts and acting as power of attorney for two cousins with disabilities, I am no stranger to the inevitability of loss. With family members now in their eighties and nineties, I anticipate that certain calls will arrive.

Recently, I received the news of a cousin's passing who was two years younger than me. Aware of her declining health and residence in an assisted living facility, I reflect on the many challenges she faced, including manic depression, COPD, and obesity.

Despite our limited relationship, I can count our interactions on one hand. Her mother, my eldest aunt, is ninety-two and has been a steadfast support through her daughter's struggles. I recall a story where my cousin experienced a manic episode while working as a stewardess, which resulted in her hospitalization in the Middle East. That was the last I heard of her professional endeavors.

During her celebration of life, we shared a slideshow that stirred my thoughts about what she truly had to celebrate. The images from her later years were heartbreaking, and the traditional markers of success—like employment and independence—were beyond her reach, not due to a lack of effort. While her father succumbed to alcoholism, her mother dedicated her life to nursing and provided her with love and care. My cousin had a delightful personality, radiating warmth and humor, and I never witnessed her struggles firsthand.

In our relentless pursuit of achievement within a culture that glorifies constant striving, her death has prompted me to reconsider the fairness of life and whether I am living with purpose, meaning, and gratitude.

Although I have faced my share of unfulfilled dreams and disappointments, I ponder whether I have truly valued the gifts of relative mental and physical well-being. While I may have missed out on some grand opportunities, I have enjoyed the privilege of navigating society and exploring parts of the world that my late cousin could not.

I recognize that in Western society, stagnation equates to falling behind. Yet, in our haste to progress and enhance our lives, it seems we overlook the small wonders of existence, such as good health, mobility, and a sound mind.

Like many others, I find myself caught in the hustle culture, balancing various content creation projects. However, this unending grind often morphs into a sense of chronic dissatisfaction, making it feel as if we have lost the ability to be still.

My cousin's passing has illuminated the fact that each day we exist is, in its own right, a small miracle. I must confess that I grapple with gratitude for deeply personal reasons.

Everyone carries regrets, unfinished endeavors, and lost chances. Yet, even I must occasionally set aside my cynicism and anger to acknowledge the blessings we often overlook, such as health and emotional stability. I hope that as you read this, you can take a moment to appreciate these invaluable gifts while they are still present.

Taking a moment to reflect on life's fleeting nature, the following video titled "Take a Moment (Live) (feat. Will Reagan)" captures the essence of pausing and appreciating our experiences.

Chapter 2: Embracing Gratitude and Presence

In the spirit of recognizing life's small miracles, the video "How to Take Moments (The Basics)" offers insights on the importance of being present and cherishing the moments that matter.

As we navigate the complexities of life, I encourage you to reflect on your own experiences and find value in the present.